While I was traveling in Thailand I often found myself living in the future, planning what to do & where to stay the next day. But now I'm back in Flores I find I am living in the past, day-dreaming about the crazy nights & the peaceful days I spent in Thailand & Bali. I guess it's a kinda post-holiday-blues, but it's strange to feel it whilst I am still in such a beautiful country.
I suffered this type of constant reminiscence during my first few months in Flores too, remembering good times & good friends from England... it took a long time to get over it & I hope it's not so bad this time.
So how does one live in the present? A guy I met in Thailand said that living in the present is one of the true forms of happiness (a Buddhist sentiment I think). But it's hard; the past & the future seem like much more appealing places to spend time, especially when the present is so challenging.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
3 comments:
Cracking question!? One position to take is that living in the 'present' is a self-evident existentialist lie - no sentient being can only live in the present, we are after all a product of our own pasts (and the 'bigger' past) - not one thought, however fleeting, not one action, however inconsequential occurs in a vacuum of the ’me’ - such a position may excuse self-indulgent selfishness, a reluctance to participate and interact with the 'collective' experience, but it cannot be seen as a reasoned or even reasonable claim - it defies reason, ignores reality and slips therefore happily into hapless absurdity.
On the other hand, much can be said of avoiding living in the past, or reacting compliantly as a consequence of it – there lies the layer of the eternal victim - surely the point is what we consciously and subconsciously actually make of the past what we will, in the present, and then bringing these and our dreams together to futurise - it is true to say that futurising is ultimately and fundamentally guess-work - but however it is done, for whatever purpose and with whatever outcome, it is one could say an expression of being human, of being able to do it.
Perhaps one can only imagine broader or even new horizons (or usefully futurise) when they have 'got underway' themselves, avoided a stagnated existence and breached lines in their life they perhaps did not know existed - for instance by pissing off to Indonesia!
dt
There will be a day that Indonesia will be your past and you will look back at it with fond memorys and maybe lessons learnt-how you found the real you? As it was once your future-your exciting new adventure! But does it really matter where we live, past, present or future - whatever gets us through eh mate?!
Gemma x
...please where can I buy a unicorn?
Post a Comment